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Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I love you too...but 

Your post upset me. First i felt anger, then hurt, then anger, then deep thought. Well, friends have it out some times and i guess this was due. We are not as close anymore, we are all growing in different directions. Ciggarrettes. I dont like them yes. I dont want my friends to smoke, yes. Fuck, when i see Jenny getting bronchitis 4 times a year, I want her to stop. I dont want to be condescending, but i dont want one of my friends to die at the age of 30 either. If im being too strong in my convictions, sorry, ill lay off. Its only because i care about you guys. If I knew you were gettting so offended, I would have stopped. Oh, and Kim only had a half a ciggarette at the wedding (not 5) dooch. And leave her out of it anyway, who cares that she smoked a ciggarrette, not like she is a regular smoker. And your beef is with me, if you have something to say to her, say it to her face. That pissed me off the most.

And the only reason i had to be so goddamn parent like, was because you were too wasted to know what the hell was going on. At this age its sad when i have to coax you not to drive, and tell you to stop yelling threatening words at people out the window. No wonder I was parent like- you made me the parent. So dont tell me to fuck off after I had to stop having a good time because I had to take care of your asses. Im just glad i got you all to a hotel room safe, your welcome.

The story comments didnt offend me. It is a first draft and I welcome all comments. Difference of opinions will only make the story stronger.

I dont want to fight man. Im glad you expressed your anger toward me. And i felt i had to do the same. Ive been a little edgy myself, you know, after quitting a 8 year habit (and it is strictly because of jobs). But thats no excuse for going at eachothers throats.

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why dont you two settle this the old fashion way.
SMOKE OFF! i'll gladly be the ref.

By Blogger ron, at Wednesday, September 01, 2004 8:21:00 AM  

Agreed! Oh wait...damn..

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Wednesday, September 01, 2004 7:49:00 PM  

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kinda lost you there on the phone murph, but yeah i'm already down in south carolina for school. thanks though. sucks i'll be missin it

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Some tings dat needs a sayin  

the white boy is back.

im glad to see that you are off weed bb, now you can be as self rightious as you want. you know what i mean with your damn comments about cigarrettes. all you need to do now is stop drinking and you can condemn us all. im happy to see that you are quitting, seriously, ive been cutting it down to about once or twice a week. but lets be honest its Kim isnt it.

dont get me wrong i like her but she is poisioning your ear and clouding your mind with anti-murphy propoganda that you are begining to believe. why dont you tell her to stop trying to save everyone and look at herself.

did you know she smokes cigarrettes? she smoked at least five at the wedding. what the fuck do you have to say about that? think about that next time you want to say anything to jen about smoking.

The bottom line is that lately you've been condicending towards the both of us. fix your own god damned problems before you try and fix mine. thanks.

i like kim i think shes a nice girl and you make a nice couple but when we hang out i dont want to feel like im with my parents.

anyways.....sorry if this came across harsh but im venting--and dealing with the apt is getting on my nerves especially the cat, and obviously jenny.

i read the story you wrote and parts of it were good but most of it was crap. i know that i havent writen anything in a while and im not the best writer myself but the story needs work.

first of all one curb not five
Cain not Kane-not a big deal
murphy brothers not wild dogs
everyone was drunk and you were not the voice of reason.
KES?-story did not include, yet?

most of the story is funny but its too fanciful 1/2 that shit did not happen

as far as the writing itself. some of the wording is cleachea ( clee shea) "the place smelled of stale b.o. and stale beer

------im not trying to be a dick the story needs work. word choice and stlye is something we all need to work on. i dont want any dark and stormy nights

i am not alone is saying that these storys that we are writing should be as factual as possible--nothing is more interesting than the truth.


by the way this weekend mom in France and john at the Cape.

RAGER IN HADDAM NECK COME ONE COME ALL

hope this email did not upset you branciforte-we need to have another meeting soon.

on a personal level. im glad to hear you are quitting and i should probably do the same

i love you man

peace out bitches and dont forget this weekend. call me 377 8833





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what night? friday or sat?

By Blogger ron, at Tuesday, August 31, 2004 1:28:00 PM  

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black noon, bitches 

as i watch a pile of cans form a wall arond me......

ok, our book and my life boils down to a bad teen comedy. but thier is hope. i think i can pull a small town and a football thing out of it to make it worth reading or seeing. I've written 3+ pages tonight adn now i'm to drunkt too write.

this is the most perfect outsider-looking-in comic's collum i've read.

today, i went swimming, read a little, called unemployment, played some video games, wrote a bunch and now i'm drunk. take that world. i may not be going anywhere but i'm sure as hell going to enjoy it. I get destracted by the larger picture and lose focuse on the smaller tasks at hand. laundry, dishes, showers, job's.
everyone seems to be going back to school this week. i'm not. and i don't need to. i'm not going to waste the money when what i really want to do is work for myself and boss people around. i just need to find a good market and decent craft where i can make enough money to hire someone else and then move on to other things. i plan on building small businesses until i'm filthy rich and can by my way into some sort of fame and turn that into some one i know being president and then secrectly running the country like dick cheaney.
i didn't think i could drink this much on a monday night, then again, i've either been in school or working during the week for the last 8 years. so fuck you "the man", i'm going to enjoy my time paid for by uncle sam and relax my ass off.
moving to ohio seems so easy. i really could od it. today i saw on the nes that pennsylvaina was actually closer i nthe pools. maybei should move there. i know you only have to live in ohio for a month before yoyu can register to vote. i'm not sure what pennsy;vaina is. i'm intrigued. this is a chance to effectivly fight for what i belive in and help beat bush. i don't think i need to rasionalise any more. time for doing things.

lets go to ohio.

i'll start a new blog about my time there. anyone have any realatives in ohio who would house me for 6 weeks? anyone? come on, i'm clean.


so bring it on world, i'm ready to punch you in the face.

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ohio, seriously? i dont see why you care so much about politics. ohio is a fucking wasteland, the armpit of the US, or atleast one of the many. anyway, i'm sure i'll see you this weekend and you can tell me why. you know, we can sit around, get stoned and play cards, because after all, what else does life have to offer?

unless you run off to ohio.

By Blogger ron, at Tuesday, August 31, 2004 2:16:00 PM  

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Monday, August 30, 2004

life slowly catches up with us. 

Aaaahhhhh yes, that evil red headed bitch called LIFE has started catching up with up. She nags and nags and never puts out enough. One of these days…..POW! ZOOM! Right to the moon with her! But, until then…..

I’m continuing with the book. Ron, don’t worry, you’re not the first and you won’t be the last to drop out. A book is one life goal. It’s a big check, but I think it will get easier as I move along.

I’m a planner, a strategist. I see things coming and I’m prepared for their arrival. I see the big picture and the small and I believe that is a unique combination that will some day drive me insane. A small example is this book. We all got excited that we were goning to write about something and tell great stories and make millions of dollars. Now, slowly, people have started to stop writing and drop out. If anyone didn’t see this coming, then I’m not sure what to say. Personally I feel as though this was my idea although there maybe some debate from multiple parties. The way I look at it is this; I want to write a book. I’m lazy. I have a group of friends who would also like ot write a book. I dropped a few hints, layed some ground work and get people excited about it. Hell we even started writing something. I never expected to have 5 or more authors. I still don’t. what I expected were people to drop out and not produce. But the lynch pin of the plan was that I was going to get someone, besides myself, to write something. Take a little bit of the load off myslef because I would eventually be hampered with job and life. Now, as people start to drop, its not unexpected, Its planned for. I plan on moving forward. Josh, keep in touch with that person who can look at our stuff. I’m going to be interested.

Big plans in life are great. The only problem is that unless you have a super specific goal in life, its very hard to achieve. If all you want is to have a job, get married and have kids, Great. Not too hard. If want to be a rockstar, it takes years of hard work, practice and a total dedication to nothing else but music and your musical career. Maybe around thte age of 50 (if you’re lucky) you can persue other things. If your goal is world domination, well, that’s a little harder to achive.

I’d love to rule the world, or at least come close to it. But that would involve other people. I can’t just wake up one day and say I rule the world, it doesn’t work that way. You have to start small. Gain popularity. There is no world to rule if people don’t follow.

Ok, hold on, I’m going somewhere great with this, but I’ve just realised that I’ve already writen almost a page, so I’m going to put this sudden writing energy to work.


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so this is growing up? 

last summer my advisor said something to me that has me thinking again. "grad school has nothing to do with school." by that he meant anybody is smart enough to do the work, its the work and its combination with life that fucks it all up.

on that note i'll keep my post quick and short because time isnt and wont be on my side until april. i'm out of the book thing. i just dont have the time. matt, dont do politics, i'll agree its a fucking waste. invent something to save the world. i say go work in renewable energy. it would be rewarding. i'm looking into it. brian, good to hear your off the pot. i could tell from your posts that you were getting a bit sick of the whole scene. the pot survey was the red-hot clue. it slows me down, and it pisses me off. i'm sure i'll still smoke with the boys when the time is right. josh, good to hear your working hard at school. as much as it sucks just ask yourself would you rather be a workermonkey? ha ha ha ha hah ah ahhahahaha

i relate to all of you guys. i'm sure you guys feel the crunch of time. it feels like your all ways behind and there is all ways something else to do as soon as you finish something else. maybe when i finish up with school things will settle down a bit.

now i understand why it took my dad 10 years to get the fucking garage door built. i'm not saying he has an excuse, but now i understand a little bit more. later

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Thursday, August 26, 2004

dirty south livin 

i dont have the time to be on this site right now, but i just caught up from chumps post about goin to vt (yes i know i'm way behind...since around the 15th or so i'd argue) and i thought it important to post.

chump, you were dragged down by that last job. i could tell by talking to you, and by your posts. so, as it's rational to not get stuck in something like that again, i'm not sure it's rational to try and do the exact opposite (by, say, moving to ohio to get people to vote for kerry). i'll tell you why. you hate bush. i hate bush. lots of people do. regardless who's in office, there will be things we hate about them, even if it is the lesser of 2 evils. further, dont move out there just to do that, unless you plan to live a nomadic life, uprooting yourself to whatever job seems attractive at the time. remember, though today might suck, long term goals are important too (look at me, i have so much work to do i dont know what to do w/ myself. it's by far my most trying test so far. but in 3 years i'll be DAMN glad i did it, if for no other reason than just the opportunities i'll have that i wouldnt have had without a law degree). dont just focus on the long term though.

brancy, i can relate to your position cuz i've kinda found myself in a similar one. i have no time during the week, and very little on weekends to do as i please (though i found if i work hard enough i can get to relax fri and sat nights, and part of sun). but this requires extreme discipline. as a result, i just dont have time to go out and get smashed anymore. cuz if i do on one of my free nights, then i'm useless for half of the next day, something i cannot afford right now. sure i go out w/ friends here to the bars, but i can't do what i did before. moderation.

but it's amazing, i feel better cuz of it, and i feel like i'm learning a lot, and i'm only 1 week into classes. i've never focused on work the way i am now, and i can see the difference.

so i guess dont get too caught up on short term goals: you want to be able to see the forest from the trees. look at what you really want to accomplish or do with your life, then figure out the best way to get there. i'm not sure any of you would like or even consider it, but if you're stuck, law school might be an option. sure, you may hate some of it (criminal law sucks my asshole), but you'll gain a lot of other knowledge that's both useful and interesting (i had no knowledge of property before i got here, and now it's perhaps my favorite class this semester). some stuff also would be relevant to some of our conversations. and of course you dont have to practice law, you can use your degree otherwise. of course i realize this means spending a lot of money/amassing loans, but if it'd help you out maybe...?

my advice is to take a day or 2 and just think. dont drink, dont smoke, dont watch tv or go on the internet all day. write ideas down if you want, or just think about them. you life goal list. how to achieve the goals. then make a decision. but dont be rash.

aight i got a shitload to do. here's to your health boys

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Wednesday, August 25, 2004

Im off the Pot... 

That’s right you heard me. The main reason is jobs. Ive gotten 4 hits in the past 2 days (that’s more than the total). All biologist jobs in FL. They are hiring like crazy. So ive got to lay off the stuff for some time. No biggie. Ive been looking at things in a new light the past few months- Our drug use, social interactions, general lives. A lot of things I thought were ok, aren’t, and a lot of things I didn’t think were ok, are. Also, attempting to do things in my life (like the book, adjust from lifestyle changes), have made me come to a few realizations. I’m ready for a new step. Moving away will develop me personally and further my carreer. Getting high and playing cards wont. Come on, seriously, we all need to grow up. Being a lazy stoner is like spinning your wheels in a dead end. Ill miss it, but theres just better things that I can accomplish and discover. Its not the same anymore and it never will be. Besides if I ever get an itching, theres always my reliable wingman Mr. Al Cohol. Have you met him?

Pot has received some negative attention in my mind lately- hence the snippy posts I guess. I think my mind may be compensating just because I have to stop. I have to stop? Well, fuck that, its bad for me anyway! See what I mean? Kind of like how I haven’t had health insurance for about a year now. I haven’t gotten sick in over 9 months. Why? Because I cant. (Although there are other factors too- I stopped binge drinking every weekend, I do yoga, etc.)

In response to chumps post: Yes, I noticed you losing your passion. You were getting beaten down by the everyday routine that is a comfortable job. You lost your ambitions. That’s how it happens. That’s how people stay at their shitty ass jobs for 30+ years. After your week long bender, you finally snapped out of it and took a fresh breath of air. (Seriously man, you were totally out of it for the entire week). Now you get to take a step back and decide where to step next. Enjoy it. Don’t move to ohio though, politics just aren’t worth it.

And the bar/resteraunt will never work. If people cant even write 5 fucking pages of a story, how do you expect them to pull it together for that? Am I cynical? Well yes I am. I can say that I am seriously disappointed with most of you guys with this book thing. It’s a damn shame, because it could be so great. BUT, I will say that it is more difficult underneath. We all don’t share the same priorities. What may be spinning in my mind, is just a glimpse in anothers. We are all doing our own things here. I just wish that you guys could sometimes follow through on your ambitions! That’s exactly what I plan to do- im going to keep writing. I hope that you do too.

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they never cease to amaze me 

when the ground breaking movie "The Horse Whisperer" was released, my first thought was, what the hell is a horse whisperer? After learning of its true nature and meaning i was mildly amused and asked if that was even nessecary. Its uselessness and shear rediculousness would never be topped. until today. today i witnessed the world renowned sport of horse dancing. thats right, someone, somewhere decided that dancing horses deserves its own olymipic spotlight along side such phyisically demanding competitions as synchronized simming, handball and men's keiren (a bycical race where you don't have to cross the finish line first to win). somehow dancing horses has moved from a circus side show to an international competition.
This year the olympics have truely reached a new low. i still care about the olympics, but they made it harder and harder to get interested when it appears that any moron can qualify. i find it hard to believe there are more people in the world who practice horse dancing other then those who qualified for the olymipcs. the appearence that any shlub can get into these great games diminishes the luster and romanticism of the olympics. how long will it be until hardcore comeptitive ass scratching can win you olympic gold? shame on you IOC, for you have truely hit a new low.

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uuughgghhh.... 

i forgot how i love baseball.. i culd very easily follow any team from here on out. but what major does one take to become a GM? i'd love to be GM of teh yankeees some day, but how do i mjake that one happen? do i need to be a lawyer?!?! josh, you're my in.

why we like movies is fodder for another post.

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going up to VT, gonna have myself a time.... 

friendly faces everywhere, humble folks without temptation.

if i need to be contacted for the next few days, call; 802-425-5465

its our VT number. i'll be there until atleast saturday evening. My phone doesn't work in VT because there is no GSM service in VT. fucking back woods hicks. Its alittle behind the times up htere but i still love it. People are nicer, places are friendlier, people are happy. Its just nicer. traffic isn't like CT, the driver next to you will let you in when you don't expect it. times are a little simpler, easier. my house is in an area where cable TV doesn't run. and we live within 15 miles of the only city in VT. The little stuff seems so much smaller, and the big things seem to move at a gentalmans pace.
so, after all that, you must be thinking "so why doesn't he just move back?"

i have friends here, i have cable TV and access to all Yankee games on TV. I have internet access and the ability to walk in to any type of store after 10:00pm here. My thinking is that i have all the little tech advances i could want here that i can't have in VT. I'm going to stay for the month of september in CT. my lease ran out at th te end of last month, but due to some administrative error, i've been living here under an expired lease. i'm going to renew it for one more month and use that month to fuck around. I figure its going to take at least 6 weeks to see my first unemplyment check so i'll be using some of the money that i had saved to pay for liveing expensies for the next month. I'm als going to use this time ot do aal the crap i wanted to do after school that didn't happen when i found a job very quickly. its time for a break for me. i need a good vacation. maybe i'll get my ass in gear and write for hte book. i wrote a full page today and made the rest of hte strory make sense. (for me a page is one full page of single spaced, 12 point font) I've been thinking of my other career opertunities. i've been thinking alot about what i want tpo be able to say i've done when i'm older. i think i'd like to say that i've worked at a bar. that i've worked at a porno store, because i bet those guys have seen some of the crazest stuff you've ever heard of. i think i'de like to have my own radio show. i think i'de like to wor in comic books. i think i'd liketo do alot of things and i've now been presented with a unique opertunity to explore some of those creative outlets and other career paths i've always wanted to try.

i read a quote today that said something along the lines of "you can't win an argument with incompetence". i had never heard it quoted before but i know that i've said that same thing many times. when a bunch of people can lay claim to a simple quote like that, who gets credit? is it the more successful of the two people? the more popular? if i were to die today, would i get credit? does anyone even remember me saying it? man, i can think of so many side to any situation that it drives me nuts. i have a hard time coming to conclutions because i think of too many situations.

comic books invade the olympics

I like doing drugs in public.

The world used to be in good hands while I was younger. Things always seemed good. Even if personally I wasn’t doing ok, the bigger picture was fine and being handled by someone else. This led me to feel generally comfortable with the way things were. I was comfortable with just sitting bac,k and letting life come to me as it may. Very laid back and generally comfortable. Sure I complained about the little stuff but things that were beyond my control seemed alright.

Things don’t seem to e doing so well now. There is war, terror and desiese. There is a rift coming in this country, between the religious right and the liberal left. Neither side will be able to pull any punches. Its not a war that will be fought with guns and bullets, but with votes and the media. Controlling the media will ensure victory for either side. The media controls what the people think and most people aren’t smart enough or don’t care enough to bother thinking on their own. Its already begun. FOX has started it with their in your face news entertainment and right wing conservitive hosts. The republicans have already branded liberals as traitors, demons and un-patriotic evil do-ers. The left fired back with a new liberal radio station Air America radio. Rush, O'riley and all the other republican message boosters jumped on squashing the new network and trying to destroy it from the very beginning. they were unsuccessful. The country is still devided on Bush and Kerry, polls aren’t showing massive support for either side.

More religious people tend to go with the republicans and bush since they think he’s “strong on terror”, although he diverted massive sums of money into another war in a country which he lied to us about. Their trying to blame anything that goes wrong on someone else, “it must be Clintons fault!” Those crazy talk show hosts get better raitings when they criticsize people and bring on confrontation. They tend to lie also, but if they say it louad enough, long enough, those simple minded religious followers who believe everything they’re told start to believe it. And that’s kind of scary.

The liberals seem to be taking their time to educate the people and point ou the flaws of society and holding people responsible for htier actions. This makes them look weak and whiney. People don’t like weak and smart. It seems to bother them. this tactic doesn't work because people like to be told things rather then educare themselves and actually understand a topic. its just easier. no one likes to think, that takes effort. and at the end of a long day, its hard to sit down and try to think about politcs. and thats how the like it. the poeple in powert dont' want you to think. that causes problems.

The more people I talk too

So this tends to flow in the direction of people believing lies and being happy. But that can’t happen. We can’t let a few rich bastards win this thing. They control everything and once they start controlling the people, they will have absolute power.

We need people tp care again, to learn about politics and have that passion for the world around them. Our country was founded on having the people partake in government, that’s why it’s a democracy. Government used to be a pastime, now its business. Its time to take part in the politics of the world. No more confrotable happyness, hings are falling apart and its time to get involved.

thats what this site in missing. some heated political debate. longer posts about whats bugging me today. i'm sorry everyone, i've been distracted with everything. life, job, no job, partyin g, everything. i need to get passionate again. start doing things instead of just giving a shit. i need to get involved. i found an add in the paper this week that said "want to defeat president bush?" it offered jobs aimed at defeating president bush. i think i;'m going to start looking into moving to ohio, or pensilvania to help sway thte vote. part of this unique situation i'm in is that i cpould possibly effect the outcome of the presidential ellection by helping people in ohia vote for kerry. move to a swing state and sway tyhe populous. i';m sure i could get some kind of democratice backer. al franken has povided links to organizations that are willing to help. i only have to live there for a month before i'm eligable to vote in the state of ohio. DO-ABLE.

The baseball season is almost up. i was so excited to see baseball at the beginning of the season, but now my enthusiasim and wanned a little. I still follow the yanks, but i'm slacking on the other teams. and i think peter gammons and john kruck have steared me right in fantasy baseball. so suck it murphy.

i guess thinkgs do look better in slow motion.

when companies create things like this, who do they consult? why can't i be the one they consult. i can acuretly predict if this crap is going to fail or not. i have a good track record. how do you break into this type of business? its like advertising, its so god damn easy.

i've been thinking. if most of us are going to stick around in this area, why dont' we open a bar/restaurant/club around here?. tino could handle the food/restaurant part of it, i'm sure owning arestaruant is part of his over all plan in life, the rst of us could work there part time, and throw some money at it to get it going. i'm sure we cold find a good place around here to open up. we all seem to have big dreams of moving away and starting over, but they never seem to happen. (except josh)

you've got you're self a god damn deal.

-Matt

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Thursday, August 19, 2004

Da Bears 

A Beer guzzling bear

Not to take away from chumps shocker, but this was funny

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i heard on the radio that a microbrewery in oregon or someplace nearby made the bear their mascot. that could be a contest, man vs. bear in beer drinking contest. i'd pay to see it.

By Blogger ron, at Friday, August 20, 2004 10:35:00 AM  

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Its official: I"M FIRED 

That's right ladies and gentlemen, I lost my job today. The job experiment that was JFD is no more. When I walked into work today here's the scene:

Frank: "good morning"
Me; "Hello Frank"
Frank; "how are you today?"
Me; "I'm doing alright"
Frank; "well that's good"

I proceed to walk into my office and turn everything on as usual. I pick up all the crap TJ was supposed to do over the last month and drop it on his desk.

Frank; "what are you doing?"
me; "I'm giving this back to TJ, I'm not going to make up for the last month of his uselessness"

Joe enters the room

Joe; "what are you doing?"
Me; "giving this back to TJ, I'm not going to pick up his slack."
Joe; "stop, just stop, you don't call the shots around here."
me; "nope, no I don't"
Joe; "don't turn your computer on"
me: "why?"
Joe; "you don't work here any more"

I shoot a half puzzled look back at him.

Joe; "you're fired, you don't work here any more"
me; "well, I'll see you around then"


and I left. joe couldn't even look at me, he half choked on his own words. Frank just sat there silent in all this. The only thing I'm going to miss is the looks on the other peoples faces when they find out Joe booted me. I'm sure Tom will be pissed, and probably call my parents tonight. Lucy is going to be upset but I'm sure she'll forget about me soon. The guys in the shop won't really care until someone else is telling them what to do but I'm sure they'll be a little confused. As for me, well, fuck um. Time to move on. Maybe now I'll have that break I was looking for after college. Maybe I'll get my ass in gear about this book. Maybe I'll go to Denver. The possibilities are endless. Its a beautiful day, anything is possible.



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wow dude, too bad about the reference. there might be some legal issues here i mean you're not incompetent, no sexual harassement that we know of. whats the reason for firing you?

alright, plan b. make one, and most importantly make a budget so you know when your money is going to run out so you can get a new job before then.

By Blogger ron, at Thursday, August 19, 2004 9:19:00 AM  

Samson! Wholy crap. YOu should of atleast told them off first! Whos son was TJ?

I have a feeling youll be called back in to talk about it. And there is definetly some legal issues there, but im not sure you would want to get into it.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Thursday, August 19, 2004 12:59:00 PM  

And its good you showed some balls. You shouldnt have to make up for anyones shit- ESPECIALLY his lazy son. Sometimes you got to put everything on the line to get some respect

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Tuesday, August 17, 2004

a little something to light the fire under your asses 

though i realize it is difficult for me to maintain any vital or serious role in the book now that i am 14 hours away and have more work than i know what to do with, i still intend to assist when/however i can. well, i think i can help.

tonight this bar in columbia held a free party (no cover and free beer) for all us 1L's (read: first year law students). well i was talkign to this girl who happens to be in my section (same first semester classes), and it just so happens the idea of the book came up. well, she tells me that if we have something done that we like, she'll give it to this guy she's close with who then takes writings and shops around with different publishers. this guy is a close family friend. her sister's husband has been researching theology and had written 3 or so chapters, and this guy took some of it and is hunting around for publishing offers for him.

now this is of course not to say that anything is certain. what i'm saying is that if we get 50 or 100 or however many pages done, edited, and to our liking, this guy is osmeone who we could at least give a copy to in order to see what comes of it. the way i see it, it can't hurt us at all if we do this. so, if something develops (and i think for these purposes it would need to be semi-professional at a minimum, ie not just our rough drafts thrown together), we have a possible connection to the next step, if we so desire.

that being said, and nothing being certain, hope you all are doing well, and that the book's coming along (let me know if i can do anything here and there to help out). ron, dont spend 24/7 in that lab, i think you might lose it a bit.

late for now

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Thats awesome. Just what we need. There will be something written, just by who is a different question. Ive got about 12 pages so far. If we could get 2 more stories that connect and this guy says he likes it- maybe that will get some of these slugs to be serious. Or not. Ill do it myself damn it.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Tuesday, August 17, 2004 11:17:00 PM  

Also, Josh we still want you in on this. Your story was off to a good start. If you have time write a few once and a while. You see how long its taking everyone else, and we have no excuse.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Tuesday, August 17, 2004 11:22:00 PM  

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Monday, August 16, 2004

stability 

funny topic to come up. i'm currently running some simulations on my other lab computer that tells me whether or not my system is stable or not. I vary the initial conditions and run it again to check. its a fun game and these crazy pictures come out of it.

the point. the stability of the system is determined not only by the type of system( ie. non-linear, conservative, blah blah blah) but also the initial conditions. so lets go back to when you were 5 years old. stealing your sisters cookies threw your system onto a course where stability cannot be reached. your fucked!!! ha ha ha ha ha hah ah ahahahahahahahahahaa.


alright i'm losing it a bit in the lab. i'm tired. i think i'm going to curb the social life and extra activities even more, bust my ass and graduate in december. basically i'm here at this school right now for as long or as little as I want to make it. i've come to realize a few things this summer and last year. the time is now and there certianly isnt enough time for everything.

or maybe i'm just freaking out. anyway i think my program is done running. later.

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Saturday, August 14, 2004

also, i just went back and looked at some of the archives....quite interesting and amusing...i'd recommend it. some good discussions

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back in the dirty south 

well i'm back in the dirty dirty, this time even dirtier than the last. got the apt all set up and shit, and obviously the internet and everything too. orientation starts tues (for which i have an assignment) and classes start thurs (for which i have multiple assignments). it's gonna be like that. and i just read ths great book, basically the law school bible, and it's gonna be a hell of a ride , from school itself, to getting summer jobs, to getting a real job, to passing the bar.

fear, apprehension, and excitement.

i like that my life keeps changing. keeps things interesting. but also looking forward 3 yrs to a real job. stability.

the key is the perfect combination of change and stability.

from this combination we can fruitfully sustain our lives, well enough to reproduce so some new fuckers can change/stabilize their own lives, while sharing your name.

if the point of life is to sustain the race, then i am enduring all this school and pressure so i can at least have enough money to enjoy myself in between impregnating some ho and working. golf, drinknig, concerts, ball games, homes, cars, family, that stuff.

according to this, the point of life is to keep it happy and interesting, as well as to sustain the species. i can live with that.

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Good post. I also think im striveing for stability. However once i get there i will probably strive for change. A specific balance is the key.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Sunday, August 15, 2004 11:11:00 AM  

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Thursday, August 12, 2004

behold the prophecy.. 

as promised, i ran a few errands today (one of which was groceries) and then got home nad drank myself stupid. hopefully spellcheck can make me look sober. Ron, i agree about asking for more money, but i guess its not really that easy at a small company. part of my problem is that i've been beaten over the head with the fact they've been around for 20 years. As i ask more questions around the place, i've learned that we've almost always been the same size. this makes me think that maybe they aren't doing that good. so i start asking about the advertising we do. what advertising? i guess there eally isn't any. i'm trying to push them to do more advertising and just generally make more money. the catch is that its really like working with anyone of our parents. they refuse to listen to logic and are quite stubbon. I think i'm going to tell joe to go fuck himself before i'm ready to leave. or maybe i'll just pull a TJ and disapear for three days. fuck um all.

any idea on a looney wedding gift?

i'm thinking $20 and a case of guinness

or some sort of animal

maybe a gerbil.

went down to gregs the other day, he saved these two iguannas from some retart who coudln't take care of them. Brian, they have extra long toes(?) and thier skin is extra leathery from being mal-nurished. and damn, megan likes to smoke. she had me smokin' bowls within 2 minutes of opening the door, and we had to hide it from dan. i guess he doesn't care what any of us do as long as we don't tell him about it.

gregs place got raided last week by the cops. he was throwing a party for his cousing and one of hte neighors called and complained about the noise. They came in and all the underaged kids were hiding up stainrs. some drunk chick saw the cops and freaked out. they stopped her and she ratted everyone out. when they were rounding all the kids up up stairs they were ready to leave until someone saw all the left over fire works in the corner. one of hte cops made a stink and they were both very close to getting arrested, at one point they were both in hand cuffs. luckily, gregs dad is basically a mobster and has a bunch of connections to the police station there. after a while the cops just took all hte fire works and one of the cops his dad knew ruined all the evidence. it was a pretty good story.

Rod Liefield is a complete waste of good talent. In its truest form.

Conan O'Brien, still king of late night.

anyone notice the government ousted a member of al-quida working for pakistan. do people care anymore? when the democrate were still trying to decide who could beat bush, i was all excited about this political stuff. now i've pretty much had my mind made up and now i'm just trying to persuade people to agree with me. i'd rather just be in control nad force people to vote for someone other then bush, or course, that would be exactly what bush is doing to keep the whit ehouse.

htere has been some exciting stuf happening in the world of syndicated comic strips and webtoons. check out the PvP site o nthe right for more on it. Scott Kurtz is offering a new way to distribute comic strips nad the syndicates are all over him for trying to ruin thier cash cow. its kind of interesting. some very heated arguements from the guy who does "non-sequitor" and a few other well known artists.

wait, i forget.

end.

hold on.


over

now

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if they havent grown in 20 years then do you think they will grow now? also matt, even if they do grow and you up production? will you need a bigger plant? more workers? i'm sure the head office is nice and comfortable with the income and such, so you coming in and trying to shake things up is probably unwelcomed.

also, about building it to code. is it really that difficult? i'd like to have you explain the problems to me sometime.

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Wednesday, August 11, 2004

steam building, ready to pop.... 

i'm so pissed off right now but its not possible for me to show emotions without pissing off everyone around me except lucy. i'm getting shit dropped on me because the new inspector if giving me shit about heat numbers and welders stamps, TJ can' t get anything right, frank ordered the wrong materials and Joe sticks up for everyone but me becasue i've some liberal hippie idiot. so pissed. i'm ready to throw this lady out the door but Joe won't have it because she's his girl. frank is alright as long as he stays pissed at TJ too. TJ decided to make this a two day work week and is weeks behind on material lists. All i'm looking for is a little support and some sort of rational thinking. i guess thats just too much. oh well, i'll just go home and drink my self into a stupor until i forget. sounds good, maybe i'll actually get my laundry done and do some grocery shopping. last night i managed to get the dishes done so i guess thats a step in the right direction.

writing seems to be calming me down a little since its taking my mind off the subject at hand. The inspector is still sitting across the room from me and is managing to drag this out from an easy halfday to a pain in the ass full day.

I took the 26th and 27th off to go up to VT. If anyone wants to join me you're all welcome to come. i'll be taking down the camp and any help is appreaciated. A little time off is much needed in my case. over the last year i've only had the two weeks between graduation and the start of this job for time off. seeing as how i don't get vaction days for the first year of working here, those two days will be the only real vaction i've had in 11 months. FUCK i need a break from this shit.

I was reading the notebook i have in my car yesterday that i used to write in. Its mostly writing while i lived in boston and was traveling from MA to VT to CT on a weekly basis. It was mostly stoned scribbles but it made a lot of sense. one of hte entry's was from before and after i went to Cancun and it was amazing how much better a mood i seemed to be in. I was full of piss, vinegar and optimisim and everything seemed to be looking up. I guess things are still looking up but at a slower pace.

ok Work becons again. mood better then when i starting writing this.

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matt, demand a raise! they put alot of weight on you. make it worth it. $$$$$

By Blogger ron, at Wednesday, August 11, 2004 5:30:00 PM  

trust, i'm working that.

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Tuesday, August 10, 2004

Pre-wedding Pigroast @ Looneys this Saturday the 14th 

Last minute invitations sent out. Its at his house in Haddam @ 3

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yeah, i got a call yesterday, we didn't miss it.

on another note, we need to pull something to geather for a psuedo batchlor party. not everyone needs to know we're going to kidnap him.

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when i get my SUV.... 

it will be big enough to run over these current sized SUV's so that me and whoever i'm with will be much safer than the other people on the road. survival of the fittest, eh brian?

just kidding, my ideal vehicle is a car with a pick-up bed. suburau brat anyone? too bad they dont make them anymore.

justin, brian, setback thursday night up at storrs? we could check out justin's new place and trash it! ha ha ha ha ha ha.

i'm going to start applying for jobs at NASA. i've been making it a point to talk with every engineer at work to ask them about their job, school, and their career choices. i've had some very long time-wasting but wisdom-filled talks. they all say to go get my PhD. i dont know if i could handle it. maybe coupled with a change in location i'd be alright.

alright doobies. later.

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No go for thursday this week

I think you should get your Phd. No job will satisfy you at this time. Youll be stuck doing drawings on Cad (which you could have done out of high school) and your talents will be wasted.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Tuesday, August 10, 2004 10:47:00 PM  

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Sunday, August 08, 2004

Greed and money rant 

Greed is a very childish state. The thoughts and actions of "give me" and "mine not yours" are all things we have to drill out of the heads of our children. We preach sharing and equallity. Everyone is created equal (atleast thats what we say). So when you see that mid 40s rich son of a bitch, buying his third SUV, it kinda makes you think. Where did these people go wrong? How much wealth do you really need. Have they not learned the basic principles that they were suppose to when they were a mere child? However, in defense of that rich son of a bitch- Being a biologist i understand the fundamental desires of all living things. One being- take all you can get, then take more. But perhaps we as humans are so successfull because we have been able to overcome these primatives urges. We use our brains instead, and learn. Compassion was allowed to evolve and hence sharing followed. Are we really progressing as a society? Or are these primative, selfish urges still ruling our lives? The world is run by money, which is the fuel for the fire of greed. No matter how much we deny it, our society is no more complex than that clan of gorrillas competes to see who has the biggest dick (there is no such clan, but you get the point).

Im been thinking about starting my own website/ blog. Just to write things relevant to biology/ supernatural/ environment/ human nature.

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Thursday, August 05, 2004

Somebodys got a case of the "Sposedas" 

Its amazing what you can remember once you start to concentrate. While writing my story, details that I never thought I could recall are coming back to me. Pictures on the wall, colors of doors, room arrangements, the way we parked, what people said. I read a bit about this. Studies where people are hypnotized and they can recall who came to their 4th birthday party. Or they can remember what was on page 32 in moby dick when it was read 2 years ago. Our mind has astonishing abilities, and yet we rarely utilize them. It takes work and time.

I need to be challenged. I realized that about my job now. Im not challenged at all so I do a half ass job. I think if I had the challenge, I would respond to it. That’s how a lot of things go. Nobody wants to do anything until they have to, or are put up to a challenge. Stumbling energy as Kolpak puts it. You want to write that book, get that degree, work out 3 times a week, stop smoking, eat better, etc., but for the most part you just stumble and forget about it. I agree that we are all smart people capable of great things. But just cause your capable doesn’t mean a damn thing. Its what you produce. Even if you produce something that only means a damn to yourself and your character, that’s enough. It’s the apathetic “could haves” that really get me now a days. Yes your smart, but what do you have to show for it?

Then you have the complete morons who do something notable. This usually piss’s all the lazy genius’s off. They say, “Well, I could have done that in my sleep.” Well, but you didn’t, so it doesn’t matter. Then the genius’s will just continue their “could be something lives”, complaining about how stupid the morons are.

For then i ask you, who's more stupid afterall, the moron or the genius?


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Wednesday, August 04, 2004

matt, i think you need a new job 

you are too young to have a boring job. boring jobs are for when you are burnt out and just go to work so you can retire. you gotta expand

this was an interesting quote from bush when asked about kerry's wife making the "shove it" comment

When asked if Heinz Kerry's "shove it" comment was appropriate, Bush said: "It's hard when your husband's running for president. It's hard to be scrutinized and to hear the criticisms, and I think that's really what the fact of the matter is in what she said."

i can only wish that i had the skills to come up with neutral and vauge comments like that on the fly. something like that would have atleast taken 3 minutes of thinking for me.

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Penny Arcade 

http://www.penny-arcade.com/view.php3?date=2004-01-02&res=l

This is one of the online comics i've been reading at work between each line that i draw. The truly amazing part is that i'm actually getting more work done when i draw a line then read a comic strip then i did before i started this time passing endevor.


http://www.penny-arcade.com/view.php3?date=2004-04-19&res=l

the middle panel on this one is a tribte to a famous X-men cover. true story.

The people i work with aren't completly stupid, its just that i've found small ways to "work around" them if you will. manipulate thier actions. We order lunch from this place fairly often and i hate it. the food is shit and tastes like day old cat urine. They actually sell soup which is simply a can of cambels soup. Its not just a theory, its actually cambels soup. This place faxes us over a menu everyday so the people here just grab it and order from there. if i intercept this menu the place can be avoided and a decent lunch can be had by all from a better place. If i don't tell frank and Joe what happens in the shop then things get done and they don't have to throw in their own two cents and piss someone off. If i screw up, which has only happened once, then i can now fool our new inspector with droves of ASME code because she doesn't really know it at all and is more worried about the welding stamps then she is about the vessel blowing up. although she is an authorized inspector from and insurence company, she has no liability if someing does blow up.

fuck this, i'm not making sense anymore. just trying to take up space and make this site seem more active then it has been.

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Tuesday, August 03, 2004

A Shot of Inspiration 

WE have to keep going. This cant be a fluke. We are going to follow through. Keep going. Its not as hard as we think. Just a little effort. It will be worth it. It will get easier. The beginning is always the hardest. Once it starts to take shape, we can all see it. There’s potential. Don’t get down on yourself. We started, now lets press on. Bang it out. We will succeed. We have too.


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Monday, August 02, 2004


sorry to fuck with rons post but i thought this was funny.

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Cant read it anyway fuckhead

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Tuesday, August 03, 2004 12:14:00 AM  

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something i wrote last night 

beer just isnt the same anymore. i think back to when we stole beers from our dad's and asked so many people to buy it for us. i remember wanting to get beer so bad that i waited with kolpak outside of a local package store, where anyone entering might know our parents, and asked entering people to buy us a 30-pack. one guy took our cash and came out and handed it back saying "better get going, the guy inside is on to you". the only thing we got going to is the package store in the next town to try the same deal.
now the beer flows like i only dreamed but its just not the same anymore. Getting drunk these days or even having a few with my friends just aint the same. ha, the though of having a few never occurred to the high school self. getting wasted was the only thing on the agenda for me or anyone else it high school. i cant really put my finger on why or how things changed but it has.
one noted time with the drink was when brian and i both stole 3 beers from our dads and had a campfire at my house. we started the fire, waited until we deemed it time that my parents wouldn’t come up for a visit and cracked them. i think i had Rolling Rock and brian had Lone Wolf. we drank the beers, appreciating each and every sip. after the beers were drank we paced off 5 steps from a rock in my yard and buried the bottles. years later at another fire after some beers, we tried unsuccessfully to find these first commerative beers.
the conversation between us was totally open. back then, it seemed like you knew when your friend had a bad shit. now things seem guarded. maybe its just me because i'm at school while most of my close friends aren't close to me, but i feel out of the loop. i guess this is just growing up but frankly, i think it sucks.
i want to be back at area 52.
i want to be back at the boy scout land.
i want to wait 3 weeks with anxiety and excitement about somebody’s parents going away.
i want to get totally and utterly wasted with the old crew, none of this going home bullshit, me included (i'm just as guilty as anyone else).
i had pretty much no worries back then. i played baseball, went to school, rode my bike and got wasted. friends did much the same. it was a tight crew based on location and the desire to get fucked up. i got a little bit of that back in the summer of 2003. no girl, livin' at home, shit job, nothing much to do. kolpak and i had some events to say the least. i believe now that nothing will ever match the tightness of the high school drinking crew.
one night we were going back to kolpak's house to get some weed. we had already had 24 beers a my house and we took kolpak's tauras. turned out to be a big mistake. justin had let the rear brakes go on his car so bad that the pads had actually fallen out. we didn't know it until a day or two later but we took his car anyways. i think the reasoning was to show me how bad they really were. so about 3/4 there justin hits the brakes and the right rear wheel locks up. its funny i remember it was the right wheel considering how drunk i was. we cant drive anymore and we were drunk. the idea was to change the tire. we got out tossed our "road sodas" into the woods and were fucking around with the jack when our friend Franklin came by. He inquired about the problem and then went back to his house, 1/4 mile down the road to get a better jack. we jacked up the car and kicked the tire until it unlocked. justin drove to his house using zero brakes. days later we fixed the problems. we never knew if Franklin knew we were fucked up but it was probably pretty obvious. good times.
one summer vacation with brian's family up at sebago lake, i smuggled a handle of rum and a 30 pack in my clothes. it was an amazing feat. Brian's dad inquired about my masculinity when i handed him three bags of clothes for one week of camping . Both brian and i knew the truth about the contents of the three bags. that was a great vacation. brian and i would head out after dinner around dusk with a few beers, usually four and drink them at a rock on the lake. man, let me tell you that was the fucking best. sitting there looking out on the lake drinking a few beers and just talking about whatever the fuck was on our minds.
one night we went down to the beach but i forgot to bring 2 coke. we had filled up the 20oz up with rum in the tent but i had forgotten to grab the extra soda. we got to the beach and discovered the mix-up. it was too late to back to the campsite because the parents might suspect something so we drank the rum and cokes extra strong that night. i yearn for those days.
nothing can ever re-create those experiences. i mean christ, i can drink a few beers right in front of mine and my friends parents these days without thinking twice. kinda takes the fun out of it eh?
one highschool party at kolpaks house, brian and i decide to go mono-a-mono. this was to decide who could drink the most. we had both in top drinking shape and this was the night. we drank, and drank and drank some more. i woke up in the kitchen on the cold tile floor using the welcome mat as a pillow with eighteen bottlecaps in my shirt pocket. brian woke up wherever with fifteen. i'm not bragging about wining the contest but those are the nights i miss.

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Whoa. Thats a lot of drinking stories. Ah yes, i feel the same ole pal. It doesnt taste the same, it never will. Remember- dont cry because its over, rejoice because it happened. Theres bigger and better things to look forward to now. Those conversations we use to have were mostly about stupid girls and how we wanted them and how we didnt have them. Our wealth of knowledge has expanded into bigger and better things now. We are happier than we ever were back then. Just because getting high and drunk were the newest and best things in those days, dont mean they have to be now. We have new experiences now to gain joy from.

Good ideas. Maybe you can organize into a story about your drinking experiences or something. Or just pick one of those stories. Or expand the theme of things not being the same, or how they have changed.

By Blogger Brancibeer, at Tuesday, August 03, 2004 12:09:00 AM  

i think reality just slapped its cock across ron's face. I too sometimes yern for the old days but also have found solace in the fact that we no longer have to worry about getting beer or hiding from our parents. Its comforting to be able to relax but i guess the hard work and determination of getting beers made them taste all that much better Its also sort of a revelation to realize that our parents are no different then we are. looney's getting fucking married! the world is catching up to us.

By Blogger Supreme Monkey Overlord, at Tuesday, August 03, 2004 8:43:00 AM  

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Space to fill 

its seems that we've all been a little busy lately so there hasn't been much activity on the old blog. I posted some new links on the side but i'm sure no one noticed since there weren't as many as i had originally thought.

As the wind dies down on trade deadline Saturday, it would seem as though the marlins made out like bandits. they picked up loduca, got jaun encarnacion back, added a rock to the bulpen (mota) and replaced penny with equal value in Valdez and picked up a few prospects all for the low price of one struggling 1B (choi) and a pitcher they seemingly have wanted to trade for some time plus a few prospects they weren't very high on. congrats to the marlins for screwing everyone. The sox made out alright for having to get rid of no-mah, mentchevich (who knows how to spell his fucking name!?) and cabrerra are going to fix the defense enough so that they won't have to trade Lowe anymore. the only problem they may have is if both continue to struggle at the plate. of course, nomar wasn't exactly lighting up the monster this year.

hey, hey, the terror alert is up again. this time its been narrowed from a general terror alert to a more specific, "some economic target on the east coast". great. i'll be sure to stock pile duct tape and bottled water. I saw the manchurian canidate yesterday. It reminded me of the dick cheney E! True Hollywood story. of course it could have been edwards too. i think cheney more because those republicans are sneaky, why assassinate the president when he could just be a lame duck? cheney has run this country more then 25% of their time in office anyway.

alright, i have nothing more of any substance to contribute. i could talk about the San diego comic con but i'm sure no one wants to hear it.

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