The Workermonkey

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Negapositive 

# posted by Brancibeer @ 6/14/2005 09:19:00 AM

I keep most of the blogs I write in a folder on the computer. I write them in Word first then copy and paste them over. This is in prevention of an internet connection screw-up or whatever ungodly horrible, make you want to put your fist through the screen type of event that can happen when you are on a computer. You all know what I’m talking about. Remember that 12 pager you were typing that got lost due to an unexpected, unexplainable system error? Oh yeah, there it is- the feeling of uncontrollable burning rage where you want to grow to Godzilla size and stomp the existence out of things. Anyway my point is that I have a lot of blogs saved locally. Kim and I were on the computer and she asked to see a couple of them. Ok, no biggie, let the person closest to you (physically and mentally) peer into the gut of the only side hidden from their eyes. I’ve tried to explain this concept to her a couple times. There are just things that are mine, and there are things that are hers. It’s really not as bad as I’m making it out to be here, but rather than get into a deep discussion, I decided to just let her read some shit I’ve been writing. It was nothing really bad. I wasn’t talking about killing people or all the chicks I used to bang. Mostly it was just me complaining about life and the stuff I want to do, or haven’t done, or growing up. But somehow she got a little troubled to the fact that I was constantly complaining. She explained to me that I was giving off the impression that I was unhappy, and that I was making her out to be some downer girlfriend. I had to assure her that I was indeed happy where I was at the moment and that I wasn’t really dark or depressed on the inside. This is just my way of dealing with all the changes that’s been happening. “You’re just so negative about things”, she concluded and left me in the room staring at some of my old posts.

Well, I’ve been thinking over the past couple weeks. I have been pretty damn negative in my posts. All I do is bitch about the world, and this rush of maturity I have to cope with every day of my life. In a way this really is not healthy for me or my well being. I’ve forgotten the ways of Yoga, the peaceful hikes along the brook, the fun of playing with a dog or cat, the company of others, a good meal, fresh fruit, throwing a Frisbee in the summer heat, drinking a beer in a lawn chair, the feel of water around your body, a good laugh. So from now on, I will attempt to be more positive on my spin on things. I’ll strive for the good and not search for the bad. Life is pretty fucking good, and it can only get better. There is possibility in every day. Enjoy your life with eyes wide open. Take advantage of what you have now, not what you want or had. I’m still struggling with life, time, working and maturing, but why not enjoy rather than refuse it.

That’s what I’m talking about.

6 comments

i hear what you're saying brancy. but dont go totally positive. i think the best strategy is moderation. just like everything in life isn't negative, nor is it all positive and to treat it as such would be naive. but i admire the change you're attempting to make, and must admit i've made the same one myself (maybe you can see it sometimes. anyone? no? ok). but seriously, its a much more rational way to look at the world.

also, i'm on the half lemon a day plan. it gives you almost all of your daily vitamin c, and there's something in lemons that cleanses your system. it also helps you to retain some of th ewater in the summer, which is great for preventing dehydration. rock on.

By  josh, at Tuesday, June 14, 2005 11:45:00 AM  

eh, optimism is overrated. cynics know where its at.

yea, i've also brightened up over the years. my lab mate, amit has this saying in India, "if you're being raped, you might as well try to enjoy it"

By  ron, at Tuesday, June 14, 2005 12:44:00 PM  

good work branciteam, dont get dragged down by the negativity of the world-look on the bright side and you'll have less stress.

By  murphy, at Tuesday, June 14, 2005 9:56:00 PM  

I think that Indian quote correlates perfectly with Brancy talking about killing people or all the chicks he used to bang.

By  DJ Booze Piñata, at Wednesday, June 15, 2005 4:53:00 PM  

Thats a horrible saying by the way..

By  Brancibeer, at Wednesday, June 15, 2005 5:02:00 PM  

its really just an extremem way of sying, make the best of a bad situation.

By  ron, at Wednesday, June 15, 2005 9:10:00 PM  

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