The Workermonkey

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Succumbing to the dark side... 

# posted by Brancibeer @ 5/26/2005 09:22:00 AM

Well, according to my statistics, the monkey should be coming out of its collective minimum soon. The next maximum will take place in about 3 or 4 days following Murphys raging Neck fest. I wish I could be there, for I surely miss good social interactions with the appropriate age group. The only contact round here Ive had lately is leaning on the side of a F250 with a dead black bear in the back, bullshitting with 2 old bastards about how things transpired. And boy, do people around here just love to bullshit. They feel the need to brag, boast, and reminisce about every stupid thing that’s ever happened in their insignificant lives. “Yep, well back when I worked for the county, I came upon this 12 pointer by the river..” Ahh! I don’t fucking care! I don’t care about your god damn bullshit stories! Fucking rednecks, go drive your truck. ANYway… there is a sever lack of youth culture in this town. The only youth around here that are “like us”, work on trucks, or stay home with their babies. The other thing is, that I just don’t get how, or what people talk about. The other day we had an ice cream social at work where everyone went outside. People were talking (if you want to call it that) and it was like an alien culture. There was no way I could have joined in. I just didn’t get it. Hard to explain, but it was like there were on the inside of the bubble, and I was on the outside. I almost hated them. I wanted to get up and yell, “what the fuck is wrong with you people! This is not right!”. But I didn’t.

Fucking work is getting to me. Its in my head. The last 2 weeks have been especially bad. I dream about working. I need a fucking break. I cant help but think about my parents. I was thinking about how their sleep schedules are all fucked up. Sometimes they wake up in the middle of the night and cant get back to sleep, or they wake up ass early and are tired, but cant sleep. I always wondered what the hell was wrong with them. If your tired, sleep. I’m beginning to understand a bit more. This pattern and routine really fucks with your head. You have responsibilities (it must be 10x when you have kids) and shit on your mind. Your dealing with stress from work, stress from home, and everything else. You wake up at the same time everyday. You go to bed at the same time. You do the same thing everyday. The pattern that you rotate in shapes your life and alters your thinking. If a human gets enough repetition, the thing will drill itself until it is a part of you. This is how people get beat down. This is what breaks us. This is what changes are free flying spirits into the tied down, closed world.

I suppose I justify it to myself by saying you have to taste the beast before you can defeat it. You have to get your assed whooped before you understand how to fight. I’m going to hold my breath as long as I can, then come up just before its too late and gasp that sweet air. That’s the plan, but fuck, I’m getting a little warped by the lack of oxygen. I’m changing with every week that I’m subjected to this life. The pattern is reaching down into my soul and taking root. I’m losing, just like everyone always does.

(Ok, I didn’t want this post to be that dark. I’m just fucking stressed here or something...)

3 comments

does anyone else feel the need to preform a clockwork orange on john? i respect your views john, but i just think you're misled and confused. maybe you've had a few bad experiences with "liberals", just don't give up. we'll get ya back.

oh, and where did bush jr. graduate from with straight C's? have you been by the skull and bones building yet?

By  Supreme Monkey Overlord, at Friday, May 27, 2005 1:00:00 AM  

you have to dent it up a little more, put some bondo on the bumper and get a hood thats another color= complete redneck mobile

By  murphy, at Friday, May 27, 2005 9:19:00 AM  

That depends Berg.. Do you like guns? Do you like shooting guns? Do you like your sister/ cousin? Murphys suggestions should get you in.

Matt, im sure John feels the same way about you. He wants to go 1984 on your ass!

By  Brancibeer, at Tuesday, May 31, 2005 11:09:00 AM  

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