The Workermonkey

Monday, April 11, 2005

Im behind by a day 

# posted by Brancibeer @ 4/11/2005 08:46:00 AM

4-10-05 11:30am

The fat cat bothers me for attention while I struggle to think of something to write about. He gets somewhat on my nerves for being too damn needy as he shoves his thick purring head into my typing hands. Cant help being a little amused as well as annoyed. Conflicting emotions can be a bitch. Its not always black and white. Nothing is exactly polar. You can be happy and sad, dying and alive, free yet chained. You get what I mean. Theres something wrong with me. Whenever I sit down to write for real, (by real I mean for a book or school) I lock up and feel somewhat pressured or restricted. But when I write to blog I can just let loose. Theres no feeling of pressure or criticism. Its when I write the best. I’ve been trying to avoid this by not writing seriously. I try to tell my self its only notes or a first draft, getting ideas down, and that ill go back to them later and clean them up. But even then I still can function normally. I procrastinate and shy away from writing. How can I not do something I desperately want to do? I want to, but when it comes down to actually doing it, I don’t. It’s a problem. Perhaps baby steps would help.

Jen my sis is down here for a couple days. She’s mostly enjoying the sun. I think Kim really likes having her down here. She misses having someone to be “girly” around. They are out shopping. I guess I miss having friends to be “manly” around too. Kinda sucks at times. Friends are a hard commodity to come by. You can meet lots of people, but most of them just don’t fit the bill that you want. Makes me think. Did we mold to eachother, or were we that much of a fit? I think we molded. You guys are great for some things, but I remember wanting more/ something different at times. I remember in middle school I didn’t really fit in anywhere. This is something I don’t really want to get into right now. Enough about me.

Chump. Your post about the energizer plant was funny. I especially liked the generic engineer description who were “spouting out the usual company jargon”. You complain about the place being static, boring, non-progressive, etc. As I remember, Isn’t this why you got fired from your first job? Your too talented with too many ideas to be drilled into one of them. You fight being the monkey they want you to be. Do you think your going to find what you are looking for in a job? I urge and hope that you will do something great one day.

Damon. Come back. I wasn’t here when you were posting so I don’t know the past but this is whole thing is stupid. (I also find it coincidental that you starting writing when I left and stopped when I came back). It was nobody’s intent for you to leave the site. I’ve gotten into tiffs in previous post for the very same reasons. It’s like what ron said, we should keep eachother in check and if we insult one another, say it. I don’t think you were trying to insult anybody but somehow it happened. We are all individuals with individual styles. Misinterpreting them can be dangerous. We all have to suck it up sometimes, and except eachother for who we are.

Murphy. You’re an asshole and you know it (just a general comment). I appreciate your efforts to keep in touch with me at times. I think you have the right attitude with this Jenny thing and you will be fine. No matter where you are in life these things suck. Glad to here that your new job is going well.

Josh. You are my brother in the dirty south. I feel for your injustice. Hold yourself to a higher principle. You are better and you will prove it. Fucking rednecks.

Macunas. We should talk sometime. I want to share views on the working life.

Ron. You need to get out of storrs. You are doing very cool things for grad school, but you need to get out of storrs. Know when it is your time. Get your shit done, write some papers and get out of storrs. You have one fucked up schedule I must say. I don’t understand how you do it. But you do have a good attitude about it and are doing great things. Its going to be a big transition.

Kolpak. Hello kolpak (british accent).

Well, I'm going to enjoy the rest of this Sunday. I don’t know how, but part of it includes a doobie and a rented copy of fear and loathing in las Vegas. Perhaps I’ll try to write a little bit more too. My new ambition is a childrens book. I’m writing and kim is illustrating. Seems like a good idea right?

2 comments

always good to hear from brancy. i certainly appreciate your optimistic outlook on things. i think you certainly balance me out at times, as i tend to lean the other way.

with any luck, i may not be your brother in the south for long (or at least not this far south). it has nothing to do with getting farther from you. rather, getting closer to home/people i know in general. i can certainly relate with trouble of meeting people, and i'm in school. you do 2 things in school: 1) learn, 2) meet people. i think its mostly my situation though. so i'm trying to rectify it..

another tangent. happening a lot lately. oh well, good hearin from you brancy.

By  josh, at Monday, April 11, 2005 4:53:00 PM  

i love the compliments, keep them coming.

i'm never going to fond the right job for until someone gives me a ton of money and lets me get creative. i'm going to have to start my own company that makes millions and can comply with my every crazy need. i'd be a great CEO of some multinational corporation but you can't really start out a that position.

By  Supreme Monkey Overlord, at Wednesday, April 13, 2005 12:56:00 AM  

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