The Workermonkey

Monday, October 25, 2004

Memories, Dreams, Reflections 

# posted by Brancibeer @ 10/25/2004 10:45:00 PM

Once and a while we find ourselves all to comfortable in our surroundings. We settle in, and forget our own lessons that we have formerly preached to others. Living home has been good in many respects. Ive been close to family and old friends. Ive been able to let the dust settle a bit after the 5 years of turmoil. Im glad i had this time (dotting the i's and crossing the t's). Ive saved a bit of money and rested my spirit. Soon however, i will be venturing off on my own once again. I will be leaving my comfort zone and thrusting myself into something new. Being home has also left me fate to some bad habits. I watch too much TV, i snack poorly, i take things for granted, i dont read or try to self improve much. I hope that putting myself out on the line will motivate me to change for the better once again.

Soon i will be sitting in my empty newly rented house surrounded by the unfamilar. I will have nothing but what i could fit in my car, and what i can find on the side of the road. I will be utterly alone. I will cry. I will laugh. I will wonder what the fuck im doing. I will be so excited that i wont sleep. Every such similar experience has been wonderful thus far- Africa, college, florida (1). I have many reasons to go. And i have few, but very strong ones, to stay.

Its like learning from a hard breakup, or surviving an illness. There's just something about fucking your life all up, that makes it come out so much better. Ill keep you posted.

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