The Workermonkey

Tuesday, May 04, 2004

I'm either 45 or I chose the wrong profession 

# posted by Supreme Monkey Overlord @ 5/04/2004 10:27:00 PM

i ifind myself sucking down red stripe and smoking a cuban while writing. and i just spit on the carpet.

The chosing a wrong profession thing has come up in my mind before. when i first got my job i figured i had acheived the hight of my profession. i had gotten a job that used my degree to some extent and it paid well for a fresh piece of meat out of college. then what? labor for three years until something better came along? or quit now and start over. That was the biggest feeling pulling me. i had done it. i had achieved the point of the last 12 years of schooling and now what. i'm still young, why not go back and get another degree? i'm a diffferent person now and maybe i'm better prepared to find a subject matter that would get me a job that i felt satisfied with. At 17 how was i suppose to find a career that was best suited for the rest of my life?

you know how i got the first one? i started in Electrical Engineering w/ a focus in Computers. i didn't like that so i switched to mechanical after the first semester. I was at RIT where there were tirmesters and it was only 3 months in to my first year as a college student. now what? i'm a master of the serialized story. i love my comics. i like my sitcoms. i'm big into a certain cop drama (the shield). I've made a turn towards the artistic and the degrgee i've spent the last 4 years getting seems like an after thought. its are areason to pay the bills. i'm looking at buying a house. John bergan had the best line. " ...so that ties you down with what? like a morgage?" yeah a morgage. at 22. But its a good investment at my age. i have the job to back it up. i have the means, now all i need is the desire. but i can live with that. zone out for 8 hours a day. no problem. i'm in. i've been doing it for 8 months and its flown by. Now i'm reaching towards other desires. fulfilling other goals. we're going to write something. something great. theres no stopping us now. once there is the motivation there is a way. there is also no where to go but up. the first script fails. fine. we learn why it fails and then fix it. and move on. writing isn't somethign that happens over night. it takes time. and at 22, time is all we have. so far i think i'm the only one with a real commitment towards a career. (macunas, i'm still that guy if you need it).

I see the state the world is in and can't help but feel anything but a need to fix it. i have answers and they make more sense then whats actually happening. i spent more than an hour arguing with my bosses today about the war in iraq and why or why we shoudn't have gone there. i've changed the minds at least one boss, and i shot so many holes in the arguments of the other that i even got his son on my side. I'm having an effect on the people around me. if i can convert joe, or show him the true way (geeze, i sound religous) then i'll have made a diffence in the world. but all bets will be off if i don't g et my raise at the end of the month. i'm ready to say "fuck you, here's my two weeks" and i'm more than willing to start over. thats the ultimate sacrifice. start over. re-enact the last 4 years and get another degree. a new career. a new beginning. its not just a threat. make it worth my while to stay with JFD, show me you can make money on a heat exchanger. let me teach you instead of letting me show you your faults. my track record proves itself. i'm right, weather anyone listenes to me or not, my logic and rational speaks for itself. today Joe told me that maybe i should be president. maybe i should, maybe i should.

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