The Workermonkey

Tuesday, April 27, 2004

nice job with the site matt. now a rant 

# posted by ron @ 4/27/2004 11:34:00 PM

i am in a peculiar state of mind tonight. although my semester is not over, it is winding down. i took a final yesterday in the class that i was worried about doing poorly in. the final went ok for all who are interested. after this semester is officially over i will only have 1 more class and one or two papers (thesis) to write for completion of my masters. this will put me in what i would like to call brancibeers shoes. whats next? (just kidding brian, good luck on your test friday)

so my rant. i have alot of shit on my mind and i dont really have a subject for it. i'm not happy about alot of whats happening around me in both a local and global sense. the first instinct is to run, run like hell to british columbia or something. where i could live out my days riding my bike and working for whatever factory around there needs an engineer. this move might be done in haste and all the consequences have yet to be explored or thought about. the local situation would change dramatically, but the global still exists. the afterrmath of this war is going to have negative effects on our generation. the US is losing alot of respect and allies. i believe that in the years to come countries that used to be our friends are going to make things difficult for us, it could be trade, support or something else. i dont like bush, i dont like kerry. to me they both seem like dirty rotten self motivated assholes. wow, this ties in nicely with the local situation.

speaking of dirty rotten self motivated assholes, i'm one. i used to consider myself self-less. but i've be thinking about myself, my actions, the consequences, and realizing that everything i do is pretty much selfish. here is an example you guys can try, insert an action or something that you chose (or chose not) to do in the blank "doing _____ will make things easier or better for me". see what i mean, watching the tube, washing the dishes, taking a shit. i mean fucking everything has a selfish motivation. alright i'm getting a little off the path here because its getting into philosphy here and basically i dont know jack. i've been trying to tone up my decision making, but this has got me depressed that all my actions are selfish. end of story. i need to get out of my lab more.

saw terminator2 on the tube last night. awesome movie, in my top 5 all time. anyway i love the premis of it. the machine that becomes self awared and when the humans get scared and try to pull the plug and it fights back. ha ha ha. it reminded me of this summer when kolpak and i would sit by his pool (wasted of course) and think about thinking. it lead to some good stuff. good times. if only we can invent a transistor that says "maybe", instead of on/off or yes/no. i'll get my army of nano-bots in my lab working on it right away. here is a good link for those still reading at this point. they try to take a scientific approach to all the "fringe science" stuff happening.

other things bothering me:
1)this site was more fun when we were bashing religion day after day.
2)there is too much mental illness in this world (on TV i saw like 100 anti-depressant adds last night)
3)everyone thinks they are a victim of something (me, i'm a victim of my sexy mullet-like helmet head hair)
4)my fucking knees

just kidding, about the sexy hair part. i look like one of my cousins from upstate new york. i've been wanting to get a truck lately too. maybe its the hair......

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