# posted by ron @ 1/29/2004 05:16:00 PM
too much optimism gets people in trouble. there is way more evil in the world than good. like if you hear a guy say 'bless you' to a girl in class its not because he's being nice, it because he wants to bang the shit out of her after class. and if the girl says it to the guy then, consciously or not, she wants him to bang the shit out of her after class. done and done. if you could some how tap into the mind and display on a TV screen all of my thoughts i would most likely be shunned by society or locked up. i suspect that this is normal however, and that everybody is completely fucked up but manages to hold it together because they see the majority of other people doing the same thing. as for karma (courtney) it's all mathematical probability. those people who stole josh's TV have about the same chance as getting hit by a car as you do given similar circumstances. so i got one thing to say, dont get your hopes up, it leads to dissapointment. people (in general) cannot be given the benifit of the doubt.
i'm taking this class called elasticity. yea like elastic bands, but with advanced math that describes deformations (tensors anyone?). so i'm in class with all of these phd. students who have been in the department a couple of years and are light years ahead of me in math. it sucks. american kids do not know math, its fucking disgusting and i am going to suffer horribly this semester because my highschool and undergraduate math programs were weak. sometimes i feel i have no business being a grad student.
so matt, a suprise visit from mommy dearest. ha ha ha, i hope she finds the children. that is going to be a good story. but then again its not like they can really say shit to you these days, i mean you got a job, a place, money. you are self sufficent should your mom freak out or something. i bet phil sent her down to bring some back to the homestead. enough wasting time, i got shit to do.